Should I Be Really Embarrassed?

Has something like this ever happened to you?

When I was first dating my husband, we were having a lovely time laughing and carrying on, and then oops! — I tooted.

Yes, I audibly passed gas. It’s embarrassing to even type that sentence.

But he didn’t react – I mean, at all. So I found myself caught between being embarrassed (my normal reaction) and continuing the nice time we were having together.

Uncharacteristically, I asked, “Should I be really embarrassed?”

His response was spontaneous and genuine and perfect: “Only if you want to be.”

Only if you want to be.

Those six words gave me permission to not be embarrassed. But they also gave me a model of how to be in the world, with myself and with others.

Getting Emotional Cues From Others

From the time we’re quite young (about 13 months) we look to others to see how we should feel. It’s the first step in learning to regulate our own emotions. You’ve seen this before:

Your little one pulls in a bit closer when an unfamiliar person starts making small-talk with you in Target. (Or maybe you’re the one who’s being friendly in the check-out line while wide eyes and little hands snuggle closer to his mama.)

But as soon as the caregiver smiles and begins talking, the child – without necessarily knowing why – feels safer and relaxes his body against hers. He waited for his mom’s cues to tell him how to feel about the stranger. Had mom been wary, his body would have remained tense; he would have experienced fear or discomfort.

We see another version of this when a toddler takes a tumble on the sidewalk. It makes us cringe internally, but if we can manage a whole-hearted and smiling, “Oopsy-daisy!” most times the kiddo will get up unphased. Likewise, I suspect we’ve all had moments when we’ve rushed over with a horrified look, realizing too late that our little one was fine until he saw our reaction. Let the wailing begin!

Now of course, if there was really pain involved, no amount of our grinning through it would stop that toddler from expressing himself. But often, the fall has just startled rather than hurt him, so he reads mom’s expression and listens to the tone of her voice for cues, and proceeds to play happily when he discerns that mom thinks everything is fine.

Regulating Our Own Emotions

Over time, we learn to regulate our own emotions. We determine for ourselves how we feel in any given moment.

But don’t we sometimes still check in with others?

You wonder if you’re a bad person because you didn’t cry when your grandfather died. Or maybe you wonder if you cried too hard and made too much of a public display.

If I’m not distraught about a friend’s illness, agitated about my mother’s state of mind, or guilt-ridden about circumstances my friend wouldn’t be in if she hadn’t been helping with my project, does that mean I don’t care enough?

None of us wants to be cold and unemotional toward others. Wouldn’t that make us like the sociopath in a Hollywood thriller? Well, yes.

But that doesn’t mean our emotion has to be fully-charged in all circumstances, either.

Should I be really embarrassed?

Only if you want to.

The words remind me that I get to decide which emotions I feel, and to what intensity. I don’t have to be embarrassed for the sake of someone else. And I don’t have to ruin a pleasant time feeling overly-guilty about a biological function I couldn’t control. Or anything else.

The Take-Away

You get to choose your emotion. You can continue to look to others to see how you should feel, as we all did when we were young. Some of that is okay. But you don’t have to follow their lead.

You get to decide how you feel about the situation, and emote accordingly.

What About You?

  • Do you sometimes worry too much about how you’re “supposed to” feel?
  • How can you adopt an “only if you want to” emotional attitude in your life?

I’d love to hear your thoughts!



  1. kindlingit

    Such great thoughts Kendra! Thanks for sharing!

    • Kendra Burrows

      Thanks. I’m glad you stopped by!

  2. monthlychanges

    I don’t totally trust my own emotions. They so often lead me astray., especially since they all seem to be so very big. I’ve taken to asking my much calmer husband if something is worth getting upset over. Because sometimes I just cannot tell. I should say that 1) he is safe to do that with and 2) I’m getting much better at it on my own.

    • kayesims

      I really like this tactic. I am blessed to have one of those calmer husbands, too. And yes, I often seek his perspective. Thanks for sharing this.

    • Kendra Burrows

      It’s really helpful to have someone to run things past like that. 😉

  3. Cheri Gregory

    Oh. My. Word. Your story is reminding me of my very first date with Daniel, 3 decades ago!

    And I’ll be pondering … and applying … your husband’s words “Only if you want to be” to all of 2017.

    • Kendra Burrows

      I’m so glad it sparked memories and spoke to you, Cheri. Thanks for stopping by!

  4. kayesims

    This is really helpful, Kendra. I thank you. ‘Tis an eye-opener for me – about how much I take my cues from other people. Recently I’ve begun to realize that I don’t have to, but now after reading this, I also have the thought that it is still OKAY to take cues from others at times – AS LONG AS I’m aware that’s what I’m doing and AS LONG AS I realize that it is still my choice. That might not make sense and might not have been what you intended, but I find myself pondering that.

    Let me try that again. I have long struggled with confidence which badly affects my decision-making ability. So now in recent years as I’ve begun to own my emotions AND my decisions, it can be really hard to be subjective. How in the world can I make the right decision when I am in totally new territory and have no confidence for how to live “here”? So I DO find myself looking to others for cues. To those who know what they are doing in this particular realm. So my mind goes there after reading your post and I think maybe it will help me be more objective about WHO I choose to take my cues from. You know? For example, I will not choose that person who tends to worry too much about people thing – because I sure don’t need that reinforcement. But neither will I choose the person who doesn’t give a rip what others think or doesn’t think twice about offending others. Instead I can choose those who are healthy, who care for themselves well but who are also kind and compassionate to others. In other words, someone worth emulating.

    Oops; that got rather convoluted! Sorry.
    But you really got me thinking.
    I guess it all boils down to paying attention to the kind of person I really want to be.
    Thanks again.

    • Kendra Burrows

      You’re right on, Kaye! I’m glad you found it useful.

    • Jan

      Makes perfect sense to me?

  5. Kelsee

    I find myself feeling embarrassed quite often and it can impact my depth of relationships, so I love your point that we actually have a CHOICE in how we feel embarrassment and to what degree! “Only if you want to be” – so good! Thanks for sharing Kendra 🙂

    • Kendra Burrows

      It was a revelation to me as well, when my husband first said it. But I find myself pondering it from time to time. Thanks for stopping by, Kelsee!

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