- My garden hasn’t been weeded or the lawn mowed in over a month.
- I keep leaving the garage door open, hoping someone will steal my bike so I can stop feeling guilty about not riding it.
- The folks at Subway no longer need to ask what my son would like on his sandwich.
- I haven’t yet looked at any of the material for a blogging bootcamp I “started” 3 days ago.
- In fact, I haven’t even looked at my new blog in several weeks.
- And I’ve not yet read the chapters for this week’s “Yes to God” study.
- In fact, I haven’t even managed to write to my grandfather — one of the people I love most in the world — to tell him I got married 19 days ago. (He suffers from dementia, but come on! Three weeks!?!?)
I had so many God-inspired plans for the summer — meeting my Christian sisters at She Speaks, starting a blog, participating in Bible studies — in addition to taking care of what God has already provided for me. Then my sweetie proposed and we planned a wedding in a matter of weeks.
I’ve been inundated with blessings and am so thankful for each and every one of them. I’m excited to glorify God for the things He’s done for me and to say “Yes!” to Him in every conceivable way.
Yet, there’s so much going on right now, I can’t sit still long enough to focus. The things with which I had intended to fill my summer are falling — okay, have fallen — by the wayside.
How do I “stick with it” when I clearly don’t have it all together? Or even somewhat together?
By reminding myself what I am doing that coincides with God’s purpose:
- I’m blending a very new family together (with some opposition), while still maneuvering two households.
- I’m preparing for a new school year as a parent, a teacher, and a teacher’s wife.
- I’m living in a construction zone in preparation for selling my house. (I’m convinced that drywall dust has lodged in the crevices of my brain and explains my fogginess.)
- I’m setting up a new laptop (that’s replacing a broken one, that just two months ago replaced a stolen one).
- I’m updating my new name with every conceivable government and financial agency on the planet.
- I just returned from a three-day trip with my husband, visiting his elderly mother who lives 5 hours away.
- And every day I get up, laugh with my son, smooch on my husband, and cross something else off my list.
Yes, I get discouraged that I’m behind on my to-do list. Because those are the things I thought I’d be doing to glorify God. But the Bible says:
The LORD directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand. (Psalm 37:23-24, NLT)
Sometimes “sticking with it” doesn’t mean doing everything you intended to do. Sometimes it means taking one more step. And the Bible assures us that God directs the steps of the godly. Apparently this is His plan for me right now.
So I’ll catch up with my Bible study and my letter writing and maybe even my bike-riding. But for this moment, I’ll stick with it by taking one more step and trusting that my Heavenly Father is directing that step and delighting in it.